Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Peek A Boo, and More Milk, too!

Callie was at home with various Aunties and a Grammy for the first part of last week because Tommy (one of her babysitters) was sick, then I had a 4 day weekend. So she went back to Tommy and Betty's yesterday, aftera bit of a vacation.

I think that she was glad to be back in her regular routine (like her Mama that way!) because she was in a fabulous mood last night.

I was holding her in the kitchen, talking to her Daddy, when she started squealing at him and ducking her head into my shoulder. When he smiled back at her, the game was on.

Squeal! Smile! Duck! (lather, rinse, repeat.)

Side note: I'm not producing quite enough milk to keep up with her, so I've been blowing through my freezer stash, while doing everything I can think of to up my supply: extra pumping, Reglan, drinking so much water I think I'm going to float away... this morning, I broke down and sent a can of formula to the babysitter's with her, which she refused. BUT! I broke records with both at-work pumping sessions today, so there's hope! I'm still not quite there yet, but things are looking up. Yay!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas!

Christmas Eve, our tradition is to celebrate Christmas Eve at home...

Christmas morning at Grandma's....

About 40 minutes ago...

We wish you wonderful times spent enjoying the company of family and friends and remembering the miraculous birth of Jesus - the best Gift ever!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

A Baby's Hug

Below is a random email forward that really spoke to me today. I'm learning that my favorite people are not always Callie's favorite people (or maybe it's the other way around). Maybe there's a lesson in that...

We were the only family with children in the restaurant. I sat Erik in a high chair and noticed everyone was quietly sitting and talking.

Suddenly, Erik squealed with glee and said, 'Hi.' He pounded his fat baby hands on the high chair tray. His eyes were crinkled in laughter and his mouth was bared in a toothless grin, as he wriggled and giggled with merriment. I looked around and saw the source of his merriment. It was a man whose pants were baggy with a zipper at half-mast and his toes poked out of would-be shoes. His shirt was dirty and his hair was uncombed and unwashed. His whiskers were too short to be called a beard and his nose was so varicose it looked like a road map. We were too far from him to smell, but I was sure he smelled..

His hands waved and flapped on loose wrists. 'Hi there, baby; hi there, big boy. I see ya, buster,' the man said to Erik. My husband and I exchanged looks, 'What do we do?' Erik continued to laugh and answer, 'Hi.'

Everyone in the restaurant noticed and looked at us and then at the man. The old geezer was creating a nuisance with my beautiful baby. Our meal came and the man began shouting from across the room, 'Do ya patty cake? Do you know peek-a-boo? Hey, look, he knows peek- a-boo.'

Nobody thought the old man was cute. He was obviously drunk. My husband and I were embarrassed. We ate in silence; all except for Erik, who was running through his repertoire for the admiring skid-row bum, who in turn, reciprocated with his cute comments.

We finally got through the meal and headed for the door. My husband went to pay the check and told me to meet him in the parking lot. The old man sat poised between me and the door. 'Lord, just let me out of here before he speaks to me or Erik,' I prayed.

As I drew closer to the man, I turned my back trying to sidestep him and avoid any air he might be breathing. As I did, Erik leaned over my arm, reaching with both arms in a baby's 'pick-me-up' position. Before I could stop him, Erik had propelled himself from my arms to the man.

Suddenly a very old smelly man and a very young baby consummated their love and kinship. Erik in an act of total trust, love, and submission laid his tiny head upon the man's ragged shoulder.

The man's eyes closed, and I saw tears hover beneath his lashes. His aged hands full of grime, pain, and hard labor, cradled my baby's bottom and stroked his back. No two beings have ever loved so deeply for so short a time.I stood awestruck. The old man rocked and cradled Erik in his arms and his eyes opened and set squarely on mine. He said in a firm commanding voice, 'You take care of this baby.'Somehow I managed, 'I will,' from a throat that contained a stone.

He pried Erik from his chest, lovingly and longingly, as though he were in pain. I received my baby, and the man said, 'God bless you, ma'am, you've given me my Christmas gift.' I said nothing more than a muttered thanks. With Erik in my arms, I ran for the car.

My husband was wondering why I was crying and holding Erik so tightly, and why I was saying, 'My God, my God, forgive me.'

I had just witnessed Christ's love shown through the innocence of a tiny child who saw no sin, who made no judgment; a child who saw a soul, and a mother who saw a suit of clothes. I was a Christian who was blind, holding a child who was not.

I felt it was God asking, 'Are you willing to share your son for a moment?' when He shared His for all eternity.

How did God feel when he put his baby in our arms 2000 years ago. The ragged old man, unwittingly, had reminded me, 'To enter the Kingdom of God , we must become as little children.'Sometimes, it takes a child to remind us of what is really important. We must always remember who we are, where we came from and, most importantly, how we feel about others. The clothes on your back or the car that you drive or the house that you live in does not define you at all; it is how you treat your fellow man that identifies who you are.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Three Months (yesterday) and/or 13 Weeks (yesterday)

I know it's out of focus, but she was just talking away!

fell asleep on her back this morning. She hasn't done that since probably 5 weeks old...

Isn't my girl beautiful?

I love this one. She was in such a great mood last night!

If I don't teach her anything else...

I want for my daughter to understand this, and know it. It took me a long time to believe it, and I have it posted on my office wall to remind myself. Self, take note:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves - Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God! Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." -- Nelson Mandela

Friday, December 5, 2008

30 minutes of mindless wandering, and I found this:


and, here I sit, still laughing....

oh - and a side note: I'm 5 stubborn pounds from pre-thislast-pregnancy weight! (15 from last July's...)

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Anonymous Comments

I really want to be able to leave the option open for my dear readers (ie., sisters, family, and non-blogging friends) to comment without having a blogger id. However, I DO want to know who you are when you comment. If you're going to comment "anonymously", could you puh-lese not be so anonymous and leave your name and where I may "know" you from?

Thanks, and have a great day.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Very Important Updates

1) Linus is now Buster, and has a new home. Lucy misses him terribly.

2) My baby decided yesterday that she'll eat from a bottle. In fact, I left 18 ozs. of milk with them yesterday, figuring that there'd be some leftover to freeze, and she ate it all except for maybe 2 ozs. The babysitters are much less stressed out and she doesn't have to be all bottle all the time, as I had feared - she'll take it from them and I can still breastfeed when she's with me.

3) I'm surviving working mommyhood. I remembered that I'm good at my job and I like it. So much better than having to go to a job that one hates....

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